NO SEXUAL SATISFACTION.. HIS PENIS IS AS SMALL AS MY INDEX FINGER . .

 I am two years in marriage with no sexual satisfaction. The biggest pain i have in all of this was that i was deceived into the marriage by that theory of no sex before marriage. I am not questioning God nor the Bible. But i feel we need to define issues more clearly so that we don’t get into trouble, the type i am in.
I met my husband when we were serving in Awka. He gave me a born again façade. I am also a Christian, better still, a struggling Christian. I know Christ; I know what is right and try to do even though I still miss my steps, just like any other person, once in a while. On account of our Christian faith, I don’t pester him for sex. I know what the scriptures say about this.
We got married about eight months later. The first sign of the coming problem was that throughout our courtship, my husband would never be private with me. he would never ask for sex not try to touch me. Not that i am a pervert that wants sex before marriage, but it is 'normal' to expect a guy you are dating to make moves and you the woman will say no, till marriage day. This guy never made any attempt and give me the luxury of saying no. I still want to play the Christian. He would not allow me. He made sure that place is a no go area. I had some fears with me that is this real. But …Every time he would say till marriage. Jesus said... the Bible says … I never knew this is jibiti Ibadan. Ibadan guy show me o!
One day my elder sister in Abuja asked me that are we sexually compatible? I said the guy no dey ask me for sex o. She said there could be danger in that. Maybe he wants to trick me into marriage. Sis told me that the two of us must stand before each other and see wetin we carry individually. She said once our parents agreed that we can marry and they sign to it, wedding is almost complete and the rest is just noise making through party.
After we did our introduction and engagement on a Wednesday, my husband was the first to disappear, because i had told him he would shine my congo tonight. He ran away. I went to his house, he was with his friends and would not come home. Please don’t think i am a pervert or desirous for sex. No. Just want to be sure i am doing the right thing. I have heard of so many men who tricked women into marriage only to find out that they are impotent.
I went to complaint to the wife of my pastor. She said it is not right for me to be pushing him to sex. Since i know him as a Christian, maybe he was living to that standard. At the risk of been seen as a sexual pervert, i held my peace. But my elder sister was always asking have we shine our congo (that is her language) I will say no, he is not even making any push. There were times we would sit somewhere and i tried to touch his penis stylishly, he would ward me off. I was like this born again sha!
We did our engagement on Wednesday and wedding on Thursday in Ibadan. I became wild with expectations. Right inside the car from the reception, i was trying to arouse him. I think this is normal. He was stiff. I was like what now? Is this not the wedding day you have been talking about? We are moving right into the bedroom immediately we get home. Come and finish me and i finish you. he was not amused. I was like ...heee!
We got home, he sat with his friends while i walked to the bedroom. he would not come in, I even heard his friends laughingly telling him to go and mark register. What was he doing outside. I heard them. He sat there.

After a while,. I called him on his phone that I was inside. He came in at about 8pm. I was in bed, naked. He sat on the edge of the bed and started some stories on how great the reception was.. I was just looking at him, with fear and trepidation within me. After a while, he looked for my rapa, covered himself, pull off his trouser and put off the light and wanted to climb on me. That was when I went wild. I stood up and shouted no way. Today, I have to see wetin you dey hide in the last 8 months. You got to see me and I got to see you. I told him point blank that sex to me is not just climbing on me. There are procedures. Immediately I put on the light and took the rapa from him, he lied on the bed, facing down. I told him I was ready to shout to everybody if he did not stand up and face me.
That was when he sat up. Uncle Bola, come and see what this man carried as penis, its smaller than my last finger. It was barely visible. I broke down in tears. For a whole week I did not speak with him. The pain with me, till now is that he tricked me into marriage. And I fell for this because I was obeying the scriptures, that the bed must be undefiled. That our body is the temple of the living God. I have been duped by Ibadan guy. Uncle Bola. Is this Christianity? Is this what i will face for the rest of my life? Why was i tricked into this marriage?
This is my second year in marriage. No sexual satisfaction. No conception till now. I don’t even know where the problem is coming from. I know I can conceive because in my past life, I was once pregnant. Thank God for redemption. I don’t ever feel him moving into me. It’s like he is scratching my congo, supplementing that with his fingers. It is me always asking for sex. He will never make any move. And its always climbing, climbing. And there he would be at the gate of my congo. I don’t know how to tell it. I don’t know how to go about this..

Where do I go from here? Please Help
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